All weekend i distanced myself, i knew i’d be better off, i was HAPPY. Today you decided to make the first move and talk to me.. by saying what “so i heard you looked hot last night” REALLY? first of all, what an excellent first move, faggot. I then proceed to tell you how i am content with my life and am for the most part moving on. You then bitched at me for a good hour, telling me to never talk to you again. When i followed your orders you texted me every freaking three minutes. Then decided to tell me how much you miss me, and us and how i’m perfect, and amazing and your scared you’ll never find that with anyone else and how you wanted to spend all weekend with just me. HOKAY. You drive me freakin crazy..
Empty promises; feeling lied to, feeling that you’re something that you’re not, being lead on, and not being able to put these people out of your mind.
I could believe you when you say i am beautiful, you’ve never make me feel like that’s true. If i was beautiful, if i was perfect, if i was good enough.. what would have been the problem.
I like Brussel sprouts and artichokes which i guess not a lot of people like. Um i hate Peeps, but i suppose a lot of children enjoy those ;)
I don’t think i have one. Granted i’ve only had one legitimate relationship and that was with Nick, i knew what i was thinking. He was everything i wanted. So i guess i’m going to have to go with Chris? even though that was not at all a real relationship but since we had the ”title” i was dumb doing that in 7th grade and by doing that i went through a real tough couple of years with being judged.
I’m scared to be alone forever. I know that sounds cheesy but the fear of never finding anyone to love me and making me feel good about myself always comes to my mind. I don’t want to go through life alone and have no body by my side.
1. your also at the top of my favorite and very top of my least favorite. i hate you, you really are a douchebag, no one wants you because you have become such an ass. honestly if i didn’t know who you were before, id be disgusted with even looking at you but unfortunately for me, i know who you used to be and thats we’re i’m screwed. I hope you get a harsh reality of how everyone feels about you…
2. your fucking annoying as hell! and honestly probably the ugliest piece of shit i’ve seen! i don’t understand why girls like you/how you get all these girls and you treat them like SHIT! gr.
3. you changed, come back! i miss you!
4. FUCK YOU! you are the biggest bitch ever and i hate having to look at your face every single day! i try so hard to be nice to you and you just like ignore it! and the best part is, you personally have no reason to be even mad at me, you even told me the only reason why you are like this. YEAH FUCK YOU.
5. And your dumb and annoying so.. shut your face :)
1. your going to be on both of my lists of favorite and least favorite, because i love you and i always will. We have been through the worst times together and we stayed strong for such a long time. We both know we should be moving on with our own lives and forget each other but we never really let go. Things are difficult, we both know that but whatever happens know how much you mean to me, well the old you. I hope everything works out for the both of us eventually.
2. you have always been my favorite, we get along so well. Its always been me and you, definition of best friends. We used to be completely inseperable. Its sad that we’re both growing up and our lives are completely different but we’ll still always be close.
3. we met not to long ago, we became wicked good friends so damn quickly! hah it was kinda awkward cause we both wanted different things and if i knew how you felt before i’m sure we could have worked things out, but i was confused and missed out on you. i guess i’ll never know..
4. well you just fricken’ wicked hot and we talk so um, your my favorite..
5. you’ve always been there for me, i appreciate it. you support everything that i do and even though we argue all the time, we laugh cause we know we’re just kidding but like we want to kill each other.
6. you are the strongest person i know, your so young but you’ve been through so much! honestly no one would be able to do what you do, keep up the good work, your making the whole family so proud<3
7. you’ve been one of my good friends for a couple years now and i feel like we keep getting closer and closer.. even though we may have ruined that with that happened the other day :X damnit i hope that doesn’t effect anything haha.
8. you piss me off so bad sometimes cause you ask me dumb questions, but your always there for me.. your always so proud of me even when its really not a big deal. you never want to miss anything i do and when im upset you completely know why cause your a sensitive one ;)
9. you just make me laugh and its fun to have you around.
10. if i didn’t know you forever, id say your a babe and if i didn’t know you were an ass.. i just might have been interested ;) your loss.
I hate who you have people, you never used to be this way. WHY?! What are you accomplishing by being that asshole. I know your not completely gone because when your with just me, its how things are supposed/used to be. Its an act i know that you put on, to please everyone else. I don’t really mind because everyday i realize this more and more and i’m at the point where i am almost completely done with your bullshit. I don’t want to be, I can tell you that for a fact. Anyone knows how hard i tried to stick up for you.. i have nothing good left to say. I’d beg forever to get the old you back, if that person ever comes back around.. please come visit me. I miss you more than anything.
I can pick two times..October 2008 - you can make that extremely corny if you know anything about me, but thats not the only reason why i picked it. I was just genuinely happy, everything was starting to work out for me. It was the start of my Varisty Field hockey and everyone on my team was awesome, it was so fun! I was also falling in love and family and friends were always there for me, it was just great.
Summer 2010 - TONS of stuff happened to me this summer which makes me very upset and hurt but when i put all of that stuff behind.. i finally made friends outside of the people i have always known. I cleared everything up with anyone i had ever had a problem with, i started talking to different people. I guess i got to prove to myself and everyone that i’m not who i used to be, i have grown up.
Haha, its not that easy to forget about things; there are some things i wish didn’t happen.. but i believe everything happens for a reason. Everything that has happened has made me a stronger person in every way.
Honestly i get really self conscious when everyone talks about how good they do in school and where they want to go to college. I know i’m obviously going to college and hopefully a better school because of field hockey, still i know i’m not the smartest. Also, i won’t say its my height because well im short and i realize that but, if i was tall.. i feel like i wouldn’t have to worry about shedding off the pounds. I feel like if i don’t do exercise or something i’ll just turn into a cubsta! :|
You can’t waste time over missing something in the past. Life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you accept that. Yet, you still can’t stop thinking about good it used to be; afraid you’ll never experience it again, afraid you’ve already lived it and already lost it.
It’s never too late to go back and fix things that didn’t work out as planned. We all make mistakes, lie and hurt people we love. It is possible to fix it, of course it won’t be easy but if you care about someone enough, you’ll go around the world and back, just to make things work.
Well I’ve literally had tumblr for one day.. but lets see; on tumblr people can see whats going on in my head/life/how i’m feeling where as if you saw me on a regular basis, you’d never know how i was feeling or whats going on. Everyone will probably know who i’m talking about in the matter of two seconds for like everything but whatevah man. I’m diggin the whole quotes and picture thing though! Its a good way to express how i’m feeling perfectly. Just another thing to get addicted to :)